Is It Hot In Here?

Today was a day of baking. I went to my grandmothers and we made some really delicious deserts for Thanksgiving. It is fun to hang out with my grandma. She can be really funny. She even made a crack about the music I put on. She said she had to take out her hearing aid lol. Man she can be so funny.

We made some really good things. I just want to eat it all up but I know that I have to wait till tomorrow. Which sucks because I want to eat it NOW! LOL! Grandma made this really yummy looking Pecan Pie that I can't wait to eat. Then I made this thing called a Pumpkin Bread Pudding thing or something like that. Anyways, it looks really good. Bread crumbs and pumpkin puree and pecans. Delish!

Next we made Pumpkin Pie, my favorite. It is so good it took all I had not to eat right there. And then I made this cranberry sauce. However, it wasn't normal cranberry sauce. It was Cranberry-Pomegranate Relish. I stole a couple tastes of that and oh my god was it good. 

then we made these cool bread sticks which just look awesome. They smelled really good too.  But the last thing we made was probably the best. I love it so much that I am going to put the recipe on here for all of you. It is called Spiced Pumpkin Cheesecake. So good.

Spiced Pumpkin Cheesecake

Ingredients:

38 NABISCO Ginger Snaps, finely crushed

1/4 cup finely chopped PLANTERS Pecans

1/4 cup butter, melted

4 pkg. (8 oz each) PHILADELPHIA Cream Cheese, softened

1 cup sugar

1 can (15 oz) pumpkin

1 Tbsp. pumpkin pie spice

1 tsp. vanilla

4 eggs

1 cup thawed COOL WHIP Whipped Topping

1/2 tsp. ground nutmeg

Directions:

HEAT oven to 350 degrees F. MIX crumbs, nuts, and butter; press onto bottom and 1 inch up side of 9-inch spring-form pan. BEAT cream cheese and sugar with mixer until blended. Add pumpkin, spice, and vanilla; mix well. Add eggs, 1 at a time, mixing after each just until blended. Pour into crust. BAKE 1 hour 20 minutes to 1 hour 30 minutes or until center is almost set. Loosen cake from rim of pan; cool before removing rim. Refrigerate 4 hours. Serve with a dollop of COOL WHIP and dusting of nutmeg.

This really is so good you all have to try it. And that was my fun baking day with my grandma. I hope to do it again sometime soon.

 

Finally Fixed

I did it! I knew that I just had to let him know how much I loved him. We are good now. We are back to getting married in October and I got my ring back. I am so happy. I was so worried but now I have nothing to worry about. Now all I have to do is make sure I don't do something stupid like that again. I love Jason to much to ruin this relationship. WE are going to get married and live happily ever after. Ok, I know that's probably not true but I like to dream lol.

I am going to really work on my anger and make sure that we do not fight as much and never in front of the boys. They don't need to see us fight. That is not good for them and all this fighting is not good for our family all together. I know it has taken a toll on my mom and I hate that my mom feels that she needs to leave the house just to get some peace. It's not fair and I know that. I know that I have some issues that I need to work on in order to control my anger. I don't know what it is but I just get frustrated so easily. Its a curse really. But I am going to work at and work at it until I no longer am screaming. Jason and I need to work on communicating more instead of yelling and we will.

Eventually we will get better and we wont fight so much. This just proves that Love is Forever!

Heartbrake at Home

Why is it that people say stupid things when they are upset? I wish I knew the answer. I said something really stupid and now I am paying for it. I love Jason with all of my heart but I still can't believe I could say something so hurtful to him. Our fight was stupid really, nothing out of the ordinary for us. But then things just got out of hand. We were yelling so loudly sometimes I cant even remember the things that were said. But I remember what I said. 

We were fighting about money and I said something stupid about selling my engagement ring. Then it got worse. I made a crack about how it wasn't worth enough and we wouldn't get enough money for it. Then I went on to say that it wasn't a symbol of our love because he didn't pay for it. That was a big mistake. Now I am no longer engaged. He said he isn't gonna marry me until he can afford to buy a ring himself. Why was I so stupid. I had just messed up the greatest thing to ever happen to me in a long time because of some dumb fight. I went from getting married in less than a year to not getting married at all. 

I feel like my whole life is spinning around and around down the toilet and it is all because of me. I may have ruined this relationship and there is nothing I can do to take back what I said. What I never should have said. I love my ring and I always have. I don't even know why I said such hurtful things. My heart is breaking and it is all my fault. There is no one else to blame. I have done this to myself and to my relationship and I cant take it back. I love Jason and I want to marry him and I know that he wants to marry me but who knows if that will ever happen now. 

I am hoping that this can be resolved and we can still get married in October. I am going to do everything I can to show him that I do love him and want to be with him and that what I said was a mistake and I hope that he forgives me. I know that this is gonna take time and I am willing to give as much time as it needs. I just want my relationship back.

This is what I am going to be focusing on. I need to show Jason that I still love him and that I am sorry for everything that I have done. Jason, if you are reading this know that I still love you and that what I said was wrong. I want to be with you and I want to marry you. Please forgive me!

Welcome To My Life

Hello and Merry Meet to everyone reading this. I guess my first post should be about me. My name is Tawneey and I am 22 years old. I enjoy reading and writing and watching movies. I am a practicing Wiccan and proud to say that I am a Witch. I am a lover of all animals and happen to have 4 cats of my own and 1 dog who lives with my grandparents. I actually don't really think he is my dog anymore, lol, my grandfather has kinda stole him. I also am a mother of 2 wonderful boys who like to get into trouble, lol. I also am engaged to a wonderful man and are due to be wed on October 31, 2011. My mother happens to be one of my best friends and will be giving me away at me wedding.

My boys are the most important people in my life. My oldest son is named Chandler. He is 3 years old and was born on Friday, July 13, 2007. He is a handful but he is my baby. He love cars, dinosaurs, Spongebob, and many other things. He loves to talk and spend time with his father. Chandler is from a previous relationship, however, I am still really good friends with his father Jim. Chandler spends every other weekend with his dad and he loves it. He has a dog named Tink who lives at his dads. Chandler is a super momma's boy but I don't see that as a bad thing at all. He just loves spending time with his mommy and playing with cars and his Batman action figure that his father got him for Christmas last year. 

Jayden is my second son and he is 1. He was born July 15, 2009. Yes you read right. My babies are 2 years and 2 days apart. Amazing timing I know. He can also be a handful but then again, most 1 year olds can. He loves cars as well and he also loves Spongebob. Between my two boys, I have seen probably every episode of Spongebob which is more than I would like. Jayden loves to spend time with his dad who is my current and forever love, Jason. Jayden is my little blonde haired beauty and such a sweetheart. His favorite thing at the moment other than Spongebob is Micky Mouse Clubhouse. I have also seen about every episode of that too. He has a great simile and loves to talk too and hug anyone he sees. 

Jason Cochran, the love of my life. We met back in 2008 through a mutual friend. I knew the second I saw him that I loved him. He is my second half, the light of my life. I cannot wait till I become his wife. Yes Jason and I fight a lot but it never once made me want to leave him. I know that he is the man for me and I will stick by him no matter what stupid things he decides to do. We have been together for about 2 and a half years and I have loved every minute. Ok well maybe not every minute but more than not. He is a great guy. He was just released from prison like a year before I met him. Yes, that's right, prison. However, he is not the man he was when he got put away. He was just a dumb teenage boy doing dumb teenage boy stuff. Now he is a wonderful father, lover, and friend. I love him so much. I know that he is the man that I will spend the rest of my life with.

Now on to my cats lol. I have 4 wonderful cats of all ages. Dongwa is the oldest at 8 years. He was born on May 11, 2002. He is my familiar and friend. He is a big 16 pound black cat that loves to be pet. I love him so much. Though, recently he went missing. I know he will come home soon but it is heartbreaking to think of my baby out in the neighborhood where there are cars and dogs. I miss him so much. He has been missing for a whole week but he will return. My next oldest is Louie who happens to be Dongwa's son. He is 7 years old. My little fatty was born April 28, 2003. I call him a fatty because he is a whopping 14 pounds of black fur.  He was the biggest out of the litter and that is how he got the name Fat Louie, however we just call him Louie. He is a snuggle bug and has the strangest purr I have ever heard. My next kitty is my sweet Billy. He was born sometime in February 2008. I'm not sure of the exact date because he was given to me by my cousins friend. He is my 12 pound gray tabby that is a big softy. He sometimes acts like a dog in the fact that he loves belly rubs and playing fetch. Yes, you read right, fetch. Mostly with the caps off water bottles or milk. And last but not least is my baby Tara. She was born July 25, 2010. She is still just a little kitten. I rescued her from Pima Animal Control in September and they say she is an orange tabby but she looks more like a caramel color to me. She is very playful and is a great cat even though he favorite place to be is on my shoulder.

So that is my life in a nut shell. Loving mom, awesome lover, lol, and animal lover all together. I hope you all enjoy reading this and I will keep it updated regularly. Blessed Be!