When someone you love is gone.....

When someone you love is gone, it hurts. As since I am sure some of you reading this have lost a loved one, you know how hard it can be. I recently lost someone who was very special to me. My Aunt Sharon was a great woman. I miss her so much. 

One of the hardest things to do after you lose someone you love is getting back to reality. It's like the world stops around you when you find out and you just don't want to believe that it is true. Your mind melts and even after you have finished crying out all the tears you have, it still seems so surreal. It has been 8 days since my aunt passed and I still can't wrap my head around it. I keep thinking that that I could go over to my grandmothers and see her sitting there in the dinning room just so happy to see me. 

I will always miss her. Everyday I know I will hurt but it will get better with time. I just know that everything happens for a reason. Blessed Be!

Counting the Days....

I am counting down the days till my wedding. It is so close now that I can almost taste it.  I just cant believe that in just 7 short months I will be Mrs. Jason Cochran. I just cant wait. And to make this moment even better, yesterday I my wedding dress was shipped. My perfect dress will be here in just one short week. When I saw this dress, I cried. I would post a picture of my dress but just in case my wonderful future husband is reading this, I don't want him to see it. But trust me, after the wedding, I will post the wedding photos all over my blog.  I am just so excited. 

The Renaissance Theme that we are doing is just perfect. I want to see my wonderful man standing at the end of the isle waiting for me to walk down and become his wife. And we are getting married under this beautiful arch in my grandparents backyard. It is just going to be wonderful. As I am writing this now I am tearing up. I am just so happy. I am happy that I my dream is finally happening. I have been dreaming about my wedding since I was 14. And now, after being engaged for 2 years, it is finally happening. I will be a married women in just 7 months. And after the wonderful ceremony and reception, my new husband and I will be on a plane to LAX for our 5 day honeymoon at Disneyland, California Adventure, and Hollywood Boulevard. I know I have said it like 17 times or something like that but I am excited. Blessed Be!

Job or Career?

When do you know when you want to make the huge step from having just a job to having a career? I am now 24 and I know that what I really want to do is be a photographer but I need something that will get me to that point. Something that I will love and maybe even continue after I have what I need for photography. And I have found it, I hope. 

Stampin' Up! A wonderful crafting company that I personally own many products from. I am going to see if I can be a Demonstrator for Stampin' Up. I will hold classes and workshops so that I may show others how to create something that I have imagined in my head. Something that is full of my creativity. I am so excited about it. I have so many ideas that I want to share with the world, well maybe just the city for now. 

Stampin' Up has the greatest stuff when it comes to handmade cards, home decor, scrap-booking and so much more. There is so much you can do and I urge you all who read this to support me by visiting my website when I get one and purchasing craft supplies from me. I will let everyone know when I have all that information. Blessed Be!

Puppy Love!

You know I never thought that I would be one to get into thew whole "Small Dog" craze but the more I look, the more I realize that I really want a tiny pup. I want a dog that I can carry with me everywhere just to make me feel good. Since all the depression that I have been battling lately, I just want something that truly makes me feel good. Don't get me wrong, I love my cats and kids but I just want a cute little puppy to ease my mind and to love. I think I know what I want to. I know that it has to be small and I don't need pure breed. But I want a Pomeranian or a Chihuahua. They are just so sweet looking. Plus they are the right size. I am leaning more towards a Pom. I don't want to be one of those Paris Hilton wannabes. But if the right Chihuahua comes along I wont say no. One of the things that drives me crazy is that people care more about making a buck then they do about their animal. I see people all over the internet wanting good homes for their dogs but want you to pay 100-300 bucks for them. There is a limit to where re-homing fees become selling. I just hope to find one soon. I really want a puppy. Of course now I have to convince my mom to let me get one. Blessed Be!

A Birthday Wish.....

As most of you who read my blog already know, I am a huge Good Charlotte fan. And today is a very special day. On this day, March 11th, in the year 1979, two very talented men came into the world. Benjamin Levi Madden and Joel Ruben Madden. The graced their parents on a Sunday. These men are well respected musicians and known world wide for their charity work. Their music has touched the hearts of many, including mine. Their lyrics are soothing to the soul and their voices like angles. They have helped me through many hard times in my life. Just one example of a song that has touched the lives of many is Hold On:

"Hold On, if you feel like letting go,

Hold On, its gets better than you know. 

Don't stop looking, your one step closer,

Don't stop searching, its not over

Hold On, if you feel like letting go,

Hold On, It gets better than you know,

Hold On"

That song helped me through times that i thought I wouldn't survive. And many other songs have played huge roles in my life, such as Emotionless. That song helped me get over my father leaving. Their words are shear poetry and I thank them for giving it to the world. Thank you. 

So today a raise a toast to two great men, Benji and Joel. Happy Birthday. 

I would also like to say happy birthday to my friend Mike who is lucky enough to share this day with the Madden twins. Happy Birthday Mike!

Wedding is on the way!

I am so excited I could wet myself. Well, not really. All i know is that my wedding is just around the corner now. I just finished the work on the Save The Dates and are ready to be dropped in the mailbox and mailed to all who are invited to the wedding. Well, with the exception of one of my friends who lives out of the country, he got his by email. I just cant believer that in just 7 months, I will be Mrs. Jason Cochran. It will be the most wonderful day of my life. I am so thrilled that I want to shout to the world my joy I am feeling. Oh I cant Wait.

I am super pleased with the Save The Dates. Over 50 of them, all hand made by me. It gets boring after w awhile but is worth it. I just want to be with he man I  love for the rest of my life. He is my whole world and we will have a great marriage, I hope. LOL. I just love him and cant wait to be his wife. Blessed Be!